Novel One - Phoenix Rising
Dr John WorldPeace JD
The WorldPeace Advocacy - Prologue
The WorldPeace Advocacy Novel
One - Phoenix Rising
The WorldPeace Advocacy Novel
Two - Paris 2009
are actually one novel that introduces the primary characters
and lays the
foundation for a evolving series of political suspense novels.
The main character in the novels, John WorldPeace, has a factual
the Autobiography 1948-2007 of the author, whose legal name
since 1988 has been
John WorldPeace, and a Prison Journal 2008 when the author
was a political prisioner
of the United States of America and earned his bona fides
as a real life Peace Activist.
John WorldPeace All Rights Reserved
WORLDPEACE ADVOCACY – NOVEL ONE
The dining room
was conservative, low lights and dark wood. We were placed
in a private room with just our table. The menu was limited
to about five lunches but each was a full dinner. I ordered
When everyone had
ordered, Bill said, “John I was truly amazed at the
way you handled all those questions. You never hesitated.
It was like you had memorized all the answers. But there is
no way you knew what the questions would be.”
Bill, I have meditated on all those questions at some point
in my life. Some took decades to work out. When I first jacked
into the internet, I posted to a lot of newsgroups and fielded
a lot of questions. I feel I have a pretty well integrated
were very relaxed. These were top-level executives at the
meeting and they in a sense have your future in their hands.
But you did not seem to give their status any consideration.
You were just having a conversation,” he said.
I have been selling for thirty-three years so I am sure that
has something to do with it,” I said.
“I am sure
a lot of those questions would cause most people to pause
and consider the consequences of their answers. You either
did a speed of light evaluation or ignored the consequences
and related your honest beliefs,” Bill said.
my truth but all those questions have alternate answers. I
could respond in a logical liner fashion or an abstract Zen
fashion. So the dynamics of the answer could change. Then
you would have two answers to the same question and some people
may not pick up the difference between the esoteric and the
logical lines of reasoning. I tried to sprinkle a little of
each in my responses. If the question is simple, I may give
a big answer, if dynamic, a simple answer.”
“It is a matter
of encouraging people to think,” I said.
“You are a
tricky guy John,” Bill said.
really,” I said. We were just having a conversation.
And I don’t want to be boring. I don’t want people
to fall asleep because they think they know what is coming
next. Those executives are smart and I did not want to put
them to sleep.”
on that check, will you please not take out any taxes. I will
spend all of it in my business so there will be no taxable
income. I am building equity in all my companies while at
the same time showing no profits. I want to create as many
jobs as I can. So everything gets spent. The web design business
is for the most part economy proof.”
“I can do
He took a pad from
the table and wrote a note, folded it and gave it to the waiter
and asked him to have it delivered.
Harold finished scanning
the contracts and handed my folder to me and I gave it to
Cathy with a wink and a smile.
Francois spoke up.
“Bill every time I am with John he shows another aspect
of himself. He is always casual and focused no matter who
he is talking to. And he is not bothered by their status high
or low. All he does is respond to the question he is asked.
He places the individual and the question in a vacuum. He
is going to sell a lot of books.”
“I can see
how John could have been a con man and made millions but he
is just not like that. He is disarming and that would scare
me if I was considering a big deal with him,” Francois
“A lot of people
have looked into his background and it is clean. And for a
man sixty that is amazing. He has made a lot of people mad
but always it seems he fights fair when others don’t.”
“I now see
how he makes some people hate him. He stays in total control
of the conversation. He has a streetwise skill in communications.
He has a really big bag of tools but he has been selling and
communicating so long, much of what he does is automatic.”
“I wonder sometimes
if there is a situation that John has not experienced. He
has exposed himself to a lot of things. He has prepared himself
well for his advocacy.”
Francois, that is exactly the way we rehearsed it,”
see how he is. I have never met anyone like him,” said
Francois with love in her eyes.
We all chatted about
hobbies, family and so on through lunch. At the end Bill had
some Champaign brought over and we toasted to the WorldPeace
Advocacy and the success of the publishing of my books.
As we walked back
to the office, Bill handed me the million-dollar check. We
all stopped and shook hands and then the WorldPeace gang left
When we were outside,
Jeremy said he was going back to Paris but the jet would take
us all back to Houston. Harold said he had a meeting with
another client and his dad. Marshall, Cathy, Francois, Jeremy
and I headed back to the airport in the limo.”
said Jeremy, “I am going to set up a week of meetings
for you in Paris in about two weeks. I want you to meet a
lot of people but not all on one night. And I want to do it
before you get moving in too many other directions. I feel
we are in the calm before the storm of non-stop activity.”
We all exited the
limo to board our jet and the limo took Jeremy to another
hanger to catch his jet to Paris.
When we were seated
in the jet, I said to Cathy and Francois, “Ladies I
am exhausted. I feel a huge weight has been lifted from me
and I feel excited about our new future. I need to go back
to Houston and lay up with you girls and just chill for a
a plan,” said Cathy.
Francois gave me
one of her looks.
what do you think?” I asked.
“Dad this is
so unreal. I had my doubts of course when you kept projecting
this from prison in your letters to me. But you pulled it
off. You have a million dollars in your pocket and that is
just the start. There is so much going on in my head about
the past and things now and what Brian, Stephanie and Dave
have said. I am taking a whole different look at all of it.
I am exhausted to tell you the truth.”
“I know. I
feel like I could sleep a week. And I just remembered I have
been moved. You and Myle need to come see us tomorrow.”
dad,” Marshall asked.
“Sorry. I did
not mention it. Yes, Jeremy and friends moved me into the
Cloverleaf in the Galleria. It is five thousand feet and they
rented another twenty-five hundred feet of office space across
the street. And Jeremy said they were doing a million dollar
furnished build out. They said I needed a place to entertain
VIPs. There is also a maid, butler, cook and chauffer too.
And three assistants to help me sort through all my stuff
and set up the web design business in the new office.”
kidding,” Marshall said.
“No, he is
not,” said Francois. “All true, Marshall. All
John just stared
“We will be
there dad. I have to see this,” he said.
“The king of
the world has to have a castle worthy of him, Marshall,”
don’t say things like that. King of the world,”
“No you were
not,” said Cathy.
there is a bed in back of the plane. Want to join the mile
high club?” Francois said.
you are something else,” I said.
“What is the
mile high club?” Marshall asked.
have sex a mile above the earth usually in a plane,”
“Not this trip
ladies,” I said.
“Two for one
special,” said Cathy.
are embarrassing me in front of my son,” I said.
they said in unison.
I could use some
coffee,” I said.
The flight home was
relaxing especially after I decided to have a glass of wine.
The limo took us
to my new home and Marshall took a quick tour. He was as amazed
as I was. The place had transformed so quickly. The limo took
Marshall back to his car at my old apartment.”
Cathy and Francois
and I went into my/our new bedroom and relaxed.
Seeing the sun come
up over the treetops was a great experience. Cathy and Francois
were both asleep. We all had had a tough several weeks. Especially
since the shooting that continues to seem more like a dream
until I look at the huge blue and black bruise on my chest.
Marshall said he would keep me informed as to the happenings
in the case but they have the gun, the bullets and the shooter’s
pants. It is all linked together. No way he can get off. It
is just a question as to what the charge is going to be.
My expectations are
that Marshall will get a call from the FBI or CIA to come
to Washington this week. I want to do it before I go back
to Paris in ten days. Jeremy is going to have my schedule
booked pretty solid from what Cathy says. He wants me to meet
about one hundred and fifty people in groups of various sizes
over the week. So it will be a grueling week but it will jump
start all the things I want to do with regards to the WorldPeace
Advocacy. I also think these WorldPeace meetings are going
to lead to some joint business ventures.
Cathy and Francois
both woke at the same time and rolled into me and said good
This is a wonderful condo. I am excited about getting up and
“Not just yet,”
I got out of bed
and walked into a very large shower where Francois was bathing.
I got into the hot mist and began to enjoy the heat. For me
taking a hot shower has always been a sort of ritual washing
away all of the negativity that had accumulated in my aura
since the last shower. It generally is a form of moderate
meditation as I release the past and think about what I am
going to do over the next twenty-four hours.
When I began shaving
my head in prison, that also became a sort of cleansing ritual
and a rededication to the WorldPeace Advocacy.
All this in addition
to the need to take care of my aging skin usually required
a fifteen to twenty minute shower. In prison I only shaved
my head once every four or five days; and my beard at the
same time. Every since I exited jail, my habit is to shave
every day and enjoy the sharp razors and shaving cream that
I had been denied for a year. But I only shave my head once
a week now. It is just too time consuming to do it more often.
If I am going to a special event, I will usually shave my
head the day before the event in case I nick myself.
Francois and I played
and caressed a bit, then she exited the shower. About five
minutes later Cathy entered. I enjoyed the casual openness
of our relationships and I liked the fact that neither of
them are inhabited or jealous.
I exited the shower,
shaved and applied the skin lotion to my body. I put on my
robe and slides and found Francois in the wonderful kitchen.
any servants here?” I asked Francois.
“No we are
alone. The servants will not come until Monday morning along
with the three women who are going to assist you in getting
your things in order,” she said.
“That is good,”
I replied. “I wanted a few days to prepare the work
for them and settle into this apartment without the servants.
We are going to have to make some rules about what areas are
open to the servants and at what times. I am not used to being
with maids, butlers, cooks and others always present.”
“You get used
to it,” Francois said. “And they generally know
the restrictions and respect your privacy. It all works out
Cathy entered the
very large kitchen area; about four hundred square feet with
cabinets and counters on the sides. The fourth side opened
to a rectangle kitchen table that would easily seat twelve.
There was a large moveable kitchen island in the center. Appliances
of every kind were built in around the counters including
two dishwashers. It was built for entertaining.
The table sat next
to the ceiling to floor windows and was solid oak with antique
high back chairs. The cabinets had been stocked with a huge
variety of food. The large refrigerators and freezers were
also completely full. Cathy began grinding coffee beans. A
silver tray of breakfast pastries and fruit were on the counter.
I sat at the head
of the table and looked out over the west end of the city.
Francois joined me with the pastries and a cup of tea. We
chatted about mundane things until Cathy joined us after she
started the coffee brewing.
we’re home,” I said. “I have so much to
do I can’t believe it. I have had a nice month long
vacation since going to Paris and meeting the two of you.
Now things are going to shift a bit and that concerns me.”
“What do you
mean?” asked Francois.
“Will I am
going back to work and that means that I am going to be withdrawn
into myself twelve to fifteen hours a day. I am going to have
to set my web design business up so I can travel and do the
same thing for the bookkeeping business.”
Francois said, “why are you fooling with a bookkeeping
business? It is such a low profit endeavor.”
“I want to
have the largest bookkeeping business in the city and I will
have a CPA firm next door that exists just to serve my clients
and a lot of my personal needs. I will have two hundred corporations
that are going to need accounting. So I need the bookkeepers
and the CPAs. I will locate them in about four locations because
I don’t want anyone knowing how big I really am.”
a large bookkeeping operation, I will be able to hide my personal
business in a d/b/a to keep the employees from knowing that
I own ten to twenty percent of all the businesses they are
“As I said,
I don’t expect to have to borrow any money so no bank,
SEC, etc will have a financial statement on me. No one will
know what I have. It will look like all my money comes from
the WorldPeace Advocacy. But if I do it the way I expect,
the WorldPeace Advocacy will only be one percent of my total
earnings. It will be complicated and if the IRS ever gets
into my hair they will have to bring in a hundred CPAs and
spread them all over the world to see what I am doing and
even then they won’t see it all.”
will be legal I can assure you of that. And CPAs are going
to be set up as the gatekeepers on making sure everything
stays legal. If it is not, they will go to jail. If I get
penalized in anyway, it’s coming out of their pockets.
In the long run, I will have enough politicians in my pocket
to keep the IRS at bay.”
“You are pretty
cynical about the government, politicians, and judges, and
cops John,” said Cathy.
all corrupt. They would sell their mothers for a cheap cigar.
That is the way it is. Like they say, ‘if you can’t
beat them join them’.”
“I want you
to know this. I am not going to supply women or drugs are
anything illegal to these politicians and judges. They get
money, wine and maybe their favorite booze. Money is simple.
It is clean. It is not like hunting and fishing trips with
or without women. All that money is going to them in above
board campaign contributions.”
bureaucrats and business men will require a different kind
of compensation. I think paying them off directly or indirectly
with money is only trouble. We’ll just have to see.
But virtually everything I make is going into an infinite
number of peace promoting endeavors. I am going to avoid payoffs
as much as I can. Most of my businesses are going to be simple.
I am not going to try to dump nuclear waste somewhere. But
I will probably try to stop it. You are not going to see me
investing in liquor stores, or car dealerships, or selling
snake oil online either. You will see what I mean as we go
is that I have to go back to work and so I am going to always
be present but not as available as I have been. I expect that
you Cathy will be by my side almost all the time. But Francois,
you have your hands in a lot of big pies and I don’t
see you doing a lot of mundane work for yourself or anyone
is girls I don’t even know where you live or anything
about your finances or if you have sailboats, horses, vacation
homes or whatever. It doesn’t matter. But that does
not mean I am not interested if you want to talk about it.
I want to know as much as you want to share with me.
want anything from either of you but your love. Your loving
companionship is very important to me. Know this, no matter
what I am doing, unless it’s a phone conversation with
the President, I will stop what I am doing and respond to
you. In addition to you two, Marshall, Kay, Jeremy, Bill at
Harper Collins, Harold, all have immediate access to me day
“We will have
to work through all the logistics.”
you have that look,” I said.
a hungry horny tigress psychic, ‘I know something you
don’t know look’. ‘I am the one in control
you know me so well,” she said as she stood up and took
off her robe and laid it on the back of one of the kitchen
chairs and then she went to get another cup of coffee. Then
she stalked toward me like a tigress approaching her prey.
She gave me a kiss
and sat down in her chair looking at me.
Cathy as usual just
watched with her typical poker face.
be somewhat dull without you Francois and empty without you
“What do you
mean John,” asked Francois.
“I mean you
will never completely open up to me Francois. But I doubt
there is anyone who could take you away from me.”
“I agree with
that John,” she said as she got up and sat down in my
lap without breaking eye contact. You don’t try to control
me John and because of that you totally control me. No man
has ever had the effect on me that you have. You know exactly
how to relate to me. You know all my buttons. I can’t
look at you without blushing and wanting you.”
“I think you
are talking about me,” Cathy said as she dropped her
After a long pleasant
heavenly experience, I was about to get out of bed when Francois
said, “John, how do you do it?”
so much. Where do you get all the energy. I know you don’t
take Viagra or anything else. How do you do it?”
I am interested as well,” said Cathy. “I am twenty-five
years old and in very good shape and you are sixty and wear
“This is one
of those responses that Kay would hate,” I said. “I
have to lay the foundation for the answer.”
“We are listening,”
they said in unison.
energy controls everything. And the spiritual energy is all-inclusive
and infinite. It is the spiritual energy that Jesus was talking
about when he said ‘ask and receive, seek and find,
knock and enter’ and ‘if you have the faith the
size of a mustard seed, you can move mountains’.
“You see that
is true. In the spiritual realm, in heaven, you think something
or visualize it and it happens. Think flying and you are airborne.”
“In the earth
realm, the spirit is attached to a body and doing things is
like moving through molasses. In the spirit realm, you think
a place and you are there. In the earthly realm, you have
to walk, drive, fly or take a boat or train. You have to move
your heavy body there.”
“So in the
earthly realm you have to first use your mind. Your mind controls
your body. And then you have to make your body move. The better
physical shape you are in, the better your body responds.”
spirit to the mind to the body all things are possible.”
of you know why you can’t fly?” I asked.
almost eight billion human minds on the planet have agreed
that it will not be possible in this reality. So yes you can
fly but you have to overcome the will of eight billion other
human beings. And that is an almost impossible task.”
“OK. Now I
have a very strong mind that has learned how to be very creative
and has been disciplined by formal education and a legal career
which required me to think and write clearly plus thirty-two
years of selling which also sharpened my abilities to make
I have not been obsessive about exercise but I have exercised
about four or five months out of the year since I was thirteen.
And I used to jog almost every day and that gave me stamina.
My knees and hips have been deteriorated by gravity so my
aerobics are now accomplished by bicycling, horseback riding
and some swimming.”
“I have a
very strong spiritual connection through a lifetime of meditation,
a strong disciplined creative mind and a strong healthy body
even after a heart attack. I healed myself through these same
principles of body, mind and soul. My heart is not like new
but it is almost fully functional in its damaged condition.”
“Now in making
love, I add one more component and that is emotion which I
believe is drawn from the body, mind and spirit. I believe
each has an emotional component.”
other things with regards to sex; first you notice that I
don’t allow myself to release every time I am with you.
Most of the time, I will only do that once every few days.
The second thing is that I have learned how to heighten the
stroking and touching of all kinds that go with love making
and focus on and achieve what I consider a lower level but
ongoing release that has no peak but is like riding a continuous
soft wave of water that I intensify and relax as I please
during love making.”
a release, when you intensely connect with someone on a body,
mind, soul level, with a heightened degree of emotion, when
you have a release after thirty minutes or an hour, it is
so intense that it completely drains all the reservoirs and
leaves you exhausted and even a bit nauseated which is a result
of deep spiritual energy releasing.”
“So that is
how I do it. I focus all those energies to a high intensity.
The last element is when your partner loves you back with
an equal intensity. Then the experience is off the charts
euphoric and will take me to heaven and give me a burst of
creative insightfulness like a very vivid and dynamic dream.
So the physical body has an orgasm that ripples through the
whole body if you allow it and the mind also experiences a
creative euphoria that lingers for five or ten minutes if
you pay attention and just harmonize with it.”
factor has a lot to do with how your partner responds during
love making. If in my case, she is responding and moving and
moaning then it radically affects me and really heightens
my intensity. Both of you are very responsive and that turns
me on. And when you are both responding at the same time,
then it is just like going ballistic for me.”
“So I love
you and I connect with you as intensely as I can with my body,
mind and soul and project as much of that loving energy as
I can into you during the act of love making.”
is very powerful when it harnesses the spirit and has faith.
I exercise my mind in other ways, simple ways. If I am going
to lift something heavy, I mentally drain the weight of what
I am going to lift and tell myself it is light; and it becomes
lighter. If I am facing a difficult or hard task, I tell myself
it is easy. If I am jogging and get really tired, I make my
mind think about sex; my body releases some chemicals and
I have new energy.”
“And if I
am trying to do something I have never done before, I use
my mind to tell my spirit to go to a place and time in a past
or future life and gather the knowledge I need. And it helps
it is. It is all about your thoughts.”
“My God, John,”
said Cathy, “that is the most amazing thing I have ever
heard. And I would find it hard to believe except I am as
you say a sexual athlete and you are the only man who has
every completely released me and worn me out. You have a super
natural ability. And I can see now you use it all the time
in everything that you do. You heal yourself and you only
sleep three or four hours a night.”
“It is not
super natural,” I said. “Everyone has it. But
only a very few believe they have it or try to develop it.
But back to making love, I have developed it because I want
my partner to experience it. That is a very important factor.
I want you to feel my love. And it seems that you do.”
said Cathy. “Oh yes I do. I have just experienced it
but never thought to question it. I can see how Francois personality
is different than mine; more curious and less inhibited, more
abstract, and so she asked the question and I am so glad she
“What is so
exciting to me is that since I have been with you, John, I
get to learn through other people’s questions in all
areas which I would not have thought to ask about but wanted
to know and didn’t know I even wanted to know,”
Francois, had that
lightening in her eyes and I knew what was next and I was
right. I wondered when I was going to be able to get out of
bed and see the rest of the condo.
don’t expect to teach and then not follow up with practical
lessons do you? How empty would that be?” Francois said.
In time I was able
to get free and tour the condo. I got up alone and was left
to myself and that surprised me. I began to slowly walk through
my new home.
About fifteen hundred
of the five thousand square feet of the condo had been allocated
for dining space including the kitchen that would be used
for large dinner parties. But a kitchen to me is like a living
room or den and I love to sit there and eat and drink coffee
or wine and chat with others.
Another 1,000 square
feet was allocated for quarters for two servants, five hundred
square feet for my office, five hundred square feet for a
dining room and 200 for an entrance hall. The balance was
going to be a large room to entertain but now contained all
my things packed into one corner of it. I would spend time
later today and tomorrow getting it ready for the three assistants
to help me on Monday organize it and then work through it.
All I wanted to do now was to get a feel for the size of the
tasks ahead of me and enjoy the condo.
I returned to the
kitchen and made a first cup of coffee and then moved to the
table and just stared out the window.
The view was wonderful
and relaxing. I realized I had come a very long way. My family
that I had imagined would give me great joy in my old age
had vanished. I still saw my parents each week as well as
my son Marshall and his wife Myle about once a month but my
sister and her kids and my other three children were no longer
a part of my reality. Marshall and Myle were busy empire building
and preparing for some role in politics. I stayed out of their
endeavors because I am too controversial and didn’t
want to cause them any grief. I am happy to meet them for
breakfast or dinner once a month or so.
My aunt and uncle
who live one hundred miles west of Houston and their daughters
serve as limited family. I have been close to my aunt since
I was born and my uncle since he married my aunt when I was
a teenager. I try to go see them a couple of times a year.
Sometimes I meet them when they come to see my mother. It
just occurred to me that I would need a guest bedroom. I will
have to inform Cathy of that if it has not already been considered.
I have no doubt
that by the end of the year we will take over an adjoining
five thousand square feet.
Cathy and Francois
are becoming my surrogate wives but the relationship is so
new, and I have a history of two wives leaving. I can’t
help but be a little paranoid about them leaving me; even
though I can’t really imagine it. Things just seem perfect
I am about to become
very busy. And I will be gone a lot. I feel like I am standing
on a two week island of time resting; the last time for maybe
years if not longer.
I continued to stare
out the window reviewing my past the same as I reviewed it
in jail. The difference is that I am now in a very beautiful
place and I have two beautiful sexy women in the bedroom.
Yet this place has a lot of similarity to jail. I guess any
enclosed space will feel like jail to me for the rest of my
into the kitchen fresh out of the shower and came over and
stood behind me and just put her arms around me. She kissed
me on the top of my head then went to open a bottle of wine.
Cathy?” I asked.
“She is taking
a shower and said she was going to her apartment to get some
things and going to the store to get some things that we don’t
“Is her car
here?” I asked.
“No she is
going to taxi to your old apartment where she left it and
I think she is going to see if she can cancel the lease on
your old apartment after she makes sure everything is out
“I see,” I said. “So you and I will be alone.”
“Yes. We are
not alone very much are we?” she asked.
isn’t it?” I said
“Yes, it is,”
her glass of wine and some cheese and crackers to the table
and sat next to me.
“Are you happy?”
she smiled with her mouth and eyes.
“I am happy
but the fact that two wives walked out on me never leaves
me. I really was surprised both times. So I guess I am permanently
scarred with a mild but deep seated paranoia about being abandoned
see me going anywhere John,” she said. “In truth,
I have never been this happy,” she said.
“Really and truly,” she responded. “Does
that surprise you?”
much,” I said. “I know after being with you just
how chaotic and hectic my old life was. And it was that way
because I was empty, lonely, and not able to find someone
who really touched me. Someone I respected and did not bore
me. And most importantly someone who could make me feel loved.”
“John, I don’t
know how Kay could have left you. She still loves you.”
father was an alcoholic and so was her husband of nineteen
years. In fact, her husband drank himself to death at fifty-three.
Kay has a lot of fear and little faith. She loved me but not
my life. She had to get off the merry go round to save herself
and find sanity. It was meant to be that she leave and you
and Cathy come into my life.”
believe that don’t you?” she asked.
I have no doubt about it,” I responded.
see me leaving. I am just working on how to be with you more
than I have been.”
will all work itself out. I am sure of it,” I said.
I put my hand on
hers and we both sat there in silence looking out the window.
In about five minutes, Cathy came in dressed, came over and
kissed me and repeated what Francois had said about her agenda.
do you think you will be gone?” I asked
be without me can you John,” she said.
“No, I can’t.”
“Two or three
hours, I think,” she said.
me posted by phone. Do you want something to eat?” I
“No I want
to get going so I can get back to you Johnny,” she smiled.
I said as I got up and walked her to the door.
We kissed and hugged
and then she left.
I returned to the
table and sat down and said to Francois, “So it’s
just you and me.”
me more than Cathy don’t you?” she asked with
a serious look on her face.
I didn’t respond
“I love you
both deeply in different ways,” I said.
me less than you do. But you,” I got up and whispered
in her ear, “I love you very deeply. I light up when
I see you and I catch fire when you touch me and if I could
make love to you and never stop, I would’.”
I sat down and noticed
the tears forming in her eyes. She let them roll down her
time I am with you, you overwhelm me. Every time I think I
am at the top of the mountain, you take me higher. I am totally
consumed by you. And I seem to be going to a place where I
could not live without you. You have torn down every barrier
I have created in my life with regards to relationships. And
I don’t care. I just don’t care. I already love
you that much.”
I walked over to
her, stood her up, hugged and kissed her until she responded
with a depth of emotion and love that she had been holding
We both wanted to
make love but we both resisted because we had made love so
much already. But we could not disengage and after five minutes
we quit fighting it and returned to the bedroom. Her tears
were all over my face.
After an hour of
the most intense love making of my life, we got out of bed
and casually showered together. We got dressed and returned
to the kitchen where we both poured a glass of wine and sat
“Are you leaving
me Francois,” I asked.
she said. “I understand why you might think that but
no. John I had to resolve how deeply my feelings for you are
and how deep yours are for me. I had to know,” she said.
conclusion,” I asked.
is that our love is immortal but we are not eighteen. I have
a complex life and you are about to engage a phenomenal life
of global proportions. There is no time for the kind of life
we would have created if we had met at eighteen. Our lives
are cast. Mine is still open to change to some degree but
your path is set. This is not the lifetime where you and I
happily ever after in a conventional way. I am so much more
like you than you consciously know,” she said.
Things will continue on the way they have. I will be near
you as much as I can which will be a lot actually. But Cathy
will be more of a wife to you than I will. And there will
be other women John and I will watch you make love to them.
Only you and I will know how things are between us. I am sure
Cathy will figure it out as will others if they watch closely;
how intense we make love and how we react to each other outside
the bedroom. But all they will ever have is speculation.”
“Even if you
had told me earlier that I was just a friend with benefits,
nothing would be different as far as the observation of others.
But you and I will know. And now I know for sure where I stand
with you whereas before I could only speculate. You can love
me totally as I do you. I had to know that John. I could not
wonder any longer. I could not go on with my life without
“I feel your
love. I understand it. Now I can resume my life with some
modification. I can quit spending every waking minute wondering
just how deeply you love me,” she said.
belong to the world and the world is calling you. You long
ago made a commitment to respond and play your part in the
is as it should be. Everything is in its right place and in
its proper perspective.”
you are a phenomenal lover,” she chuckled.
are a significant number of phenomenal women in your future.
That little girl Debra is one of them and you know it. They
will all come and go over time. A few will stay. But I don’t
think any will match our connection. Close maybe, but not
all the way. All these women have very important work to do
with you and they need the connection to you. Some need a
stronger deeper connection than others. But they are all teachers
of one sort or another. They will do well without you. But
they will do better, achieve so much more, with some personal
guidance from you. And you will also gain from a deep connection
with them. It is a two way connection. Have no doubt about
that,” she said.
one of us dies, we will always be close, interact, grow, love,
“John I have
had an epiphany because I connected with you. I am relaxed.
I feel complete. I feel loved. I feel OK.”
“Yes and people
will see it and wonder what caused it,” I said.
“They will know what caused it because they are going
to see it in everyone who is close to you. They will each
have their own epiphany; men and women. No you want have sex
with the men. But no one can be in your energy and not be
uplifted. I believe that shortly your energy is going to increase
as if you had been struck by lightning. The people in the
second, third and fourth layers around you will change too.”
“It is all
really amazing. But I am your first true believer. I am your
first convert; your first healing if you will. I cannot tell
you how peaceful and powerful and complete I feel. But you
know what I am talking about because you have been living
it a long time. You keep having epiphanies that keep boosting
your energy John,” she said.
John. From all that I am, thank you,” she said with
a tear in her eye.
“I love you,
Francois,” I said. “You have healed and made me
whole with your love as well. I had to be healed as well in
order to go forward. Because of you, I know I can complete
“Kay did the
same for me on a different level twenty years ago. But my
energy was not as dynamic as it is now. Kay is a true angel
and she promised before we were born to come to me in my time
of need. And she honored that obligation. But she was also
to leave and I was to help her spiritually and in other ways
after she left. I have and will continue to do just that.
Now you have come and touched me.”
Kay, you are as psychic as me.”
but closing the gap,” she said.
for everything,” I said.
We looked each other
in the eyes, held hands and smiled an unspoken knowing.
OK, now I need to
take care of some business,” I said.
“What is that?”
“Are you aware
that I have been to Washington DC twice to talk to the CIA,
FBI and NSA?” I asked.
she said with a minor look of amazement.
“Who did you
talk to?” she asked.
say anymore, Francois, I want you to know they told me that
you are one of their agents. I say this now because I don’t
know if anything I say to you may put your job in jeopardy.”
“How is that?”
“I have no
idea. I don’t know how all this bureaucratic intelligence
stuff works,” I said.
even know if I should have told you that I know you are an
people you talked to were speculating,” she said.
I was told this by each of the directors of the FBI, CIA and
With that she could
not hold back her shocked expression.
did they tell you about me?” she asked.
I said. “And I did not ask anything more about you.”
“How did the
subject come up?” she asked.
“I was taken
to DC for a meeting after I returned from Paris. At the meeting,
I asked how many and who of the people I had met in Paris
were agents and they told me. They gave me the names and nothing
more. And I asked no further questions,” I said.
did they point out?” she asked.
I don’t want to answer that because I don’t know
if I should have even told you I know about you. One of the
reasons I did not ask any more questions was because I did
not want to say I leaked any information. I know I could not
leak what I did not know. So I don’t want to give you
any more names. I will be going back to DC this week or at
least before I go back to Paris and I will probably ask more
reason I brought this up is because of what just happened
between us. Surely they can’t expect me to be this intensely
involved with you and not have the fact that I know you are
an agent as a secret between us. I won’t use you in
anyway Francois. I am not a spy and I told them I would only
do things for them that were not contrary to my WorldPeace
Advocacy or my morals or ethics.”
words, I am a contract agent and not their employee. We are
partners in whatever I do for them except they were told they
had to pay me. I don’t want to work for them but I will
if I am paid. And that does not count the protection they
give me already; like the FBI agent at the shooting. I don’t
know who else they have assigned to me.”
I guess you will never cease to amaze and astound me. The
fact that you are talking to the directors of those agencies
just blows me away. And that they told you I was an agent
also astounds me. It means they trust you and for someone
sixty with no history with them, that is amazing. Actually
almost unheard of,” she said.
“I am sure.
But they know I am going to enter the world stage and they
had to talk to me before Harper Collins did a deal and launched
my WorldPeace Advocacy. So they knew they had to deal with
me and they know they have to give me certain info to get
my confidence. They also know I have a lot of paranoia and
animosity toward police and government. But they also know
I am no traitor or terrorist and they know I am not setting
up an organization with members and an agenda. They know that
I will work through existing structures. So they outted you
to me. And I felt I had to tell you after our conversation
this morning,” she asked.
morning you got closer to me than any agent’s job would
require or allow you to get. So I guess I figured you would
not turn over on me. But I needed to get this out in the open
so you and I would not have this secret between us.”
“John, I just
don’t know what to say,” she said.
first thing you need to tell me is if what you told me this
morning was part of your job,” I said.
“No John it
was not. In fact, I don’t know how it will affect my
job. Before I went to that level with you I had to make a
decision that if I did lose my job for being truly in love
with you, I was willing to give it up. And I love my work
for the CIA,” she said.
“So the answer
John is that I am really completely in love with you. And
what about you? Were you playing me?” she asked.
“If I was,
I would not have brought this up. I knew I was in love with
you when you made love to me in the hospital,” I said.
“Actually the first time I saw you my desire for you
she said. “I thought that I alienated you after the
hospital sex. I thought it was going to turn you away from
“No. It bonded
me to you. I have never been as totally in love with anyone
as I am with you.”
she said as the tears started to flow.
I got up and got
on my knees, held her hands, looked into her eyes and said,
“I love you.”
She leaned over
me and hugged and kissed me. Her tears touched me deeply.
I stood up saying
I did not want Cathy to see this if she walked in.
“So what are
you required to tell them about me?”
fine. I have nothing to hide and I am sure this place is bugged
to the max. I have accepted that. I have to allow their shadows
from now on. And I am OK with it because I want to go forward
with the WorldPeace Advocacy. So I will work with them and
be their bug in a jar for now.”
knows what I know in regards to what these people tell me.
In fact, I am sure he knows more because he is a cop,”
sense now that you mention it,” she said.
“And he can
see that we have something between us. But like I said, I
don’t know how all this spy stuff works. All that matters
is that it is all out in the open between us, Francois. I
can’t love you if there are secrets. The level of love
I have for you demands absolute truth. And once that truth
is broken, you can’t put the relations back together.
Truth is one issue that is absolute, no exceptions. One lie
and I will assume everything you ever said to me was a lie.
It is just the way I am. It has to do with the experience
of two nineteen year marriages. So today is amnesty day. You
have to straighten out any untruths or forever hold your peace.”
nothing John. I work for them. I tell them everything. You
have known I work for them so you could not have said anything
to me that you did not want them to know. I am just surprised
you connected with me knowing I worked for them,” she
“I deal with
everyone on a soul level Francois. I was not going to allow
your work to get in the way of the intense deep love I have
for you and the heavenly euphoria I experience when I am around
you and I especially feel when we are intimate; and more so
now than ever before after this morning. I want what we have
to grow so I had to remove the landmines from our playing
field or should I say our field of love.”
“So is there
anything else you want to tell me?”
I see them this week I will ask them if I can discuss with
you the other agent or discuss what they tell me. I am going
to tell them they need to treat us as husband and wife.”
“Do you have
a problem with that?” I asked.
“I will tell
them the same thing. I hope they let us work together. That
would be my hope.”
“So I guess
we just have to put this on the table until we both see them.
I will tell Marshall what we have talked about and have him
ask if you can be a part of our future meetings. Are you sure
you want to work with me in this area?”
“Yes, I do.
It is more than I could have ever dreamed that we could be
lovers and work together as well. The possibilities for them
are greatly expanded under that scenario. We will see,”
“John, I can
see why Kay had to leave you. I am a very smart person but
you make my head spin. I was a bit jealous and intimidated
by Kay because I know how intensely you loved her. I knew
this even before today when I realized just how intense you
could be. But now I see that even though you may have sex
with her in the future and you will always love her, she is
no threat to our relationship.”
“You are right.
But I can assure you there will be no future intimacy between
us,” I said.
Cathy arrived and
I walked to the front door expecting her to have things that
needed to be carried in. Her hands in fact had several net
bags of groceries from the Whole Earth food store. I took
several and kissed on the lips. We walked into the kitchen
and put them on the counter.”
is in the car,” I asked.
“Just my personal
things; I can manage. I’ll be right back,” she
I said as I went back and sat down with Francois.
“I want to
have Cathy contact Harold and ask for a short email highlighting
his thoughts about the Harper contract,” I said. “I
want to look at that before going to DC. And by the way, I
have never mentioned DC to Cathy. She was not identified to
me as an agent.”
“Also, I want
to contact Rose and Linda and see about terminating my relationship
she said as Cathy returned and brought a large duffle bag,
a suitcase, and a smaller cloth bag stuffed with casual clothes
I would assume with her.
“Did you complete
all your errands,” I asked as Cathy began to make some
“Yes. No problems.
You are officially moved out of the apartment now. I told
the manager that Rose and Linda had keys but instead of worrying
about it, I just paid $35 to have the locks changed immediately.
So I did not have to call them.”
“I was just
talking about them. I need to contact them and discuss breaking
off my relationship with them. I can’t be sleeping with
four women,” I said. “But more importantly neither
have really been a part of my WorldPeace endeavors or my business.
I kept my relationship with them strictly one of recreation.
We never discussed anything of importance.”
“I care about
both of them but no way does my relationship with them come
close to what we have. I feel like if I am going to have a
relationship from now on, it needs to be with someone who
is involved in my work in some way. I really don’t want
to go on a date and explain what I do and I don’t really
want to listen to anyone tell me about her job either.”
“I like to
talk about the internet and WorldPeace and all the related
issues and things I am involved in. Pretty egocentric but
it is not noticeable if I am with someone who is a true believer.
My vocation and avocation are really merged,” I said.
“By the way,
have you seen any plans around here showing how they are going
to lay out the rest of the apartment or the office across
the street?” I asked.
Both responded that
they had not.
“I want to
make sure there is a small guest bedroom in here and I want
an easel both here and across the street. I want to find a
young female art student to work on my art.”
“How is that?”
“I just realized
that neither of you have seen my art.”
“No we haven’t.
Just on the internet,” Cathy said.
“Well it is
in the living room with the other stuff they brought over.
We can look at it in a bit if you want.”
“I want to
see it now,” said Francois as she got up.
I walked with her
to the storage room, which was actually a thousand square
feet. Cathy followed with her coffee and a cup for me.
All the paintings
were facing the wall and so I began to turn them around. Francois
did not say much but she was intensely looking at each of
them as I turned them around and placed them along the outside
wall of the room. Twelve of them were 4 x 8 feet to 5 x 6
feet in height and width. I found the last one I was working
on, a much smaller piece, and put it on the easel.”
“I saw them on the internet John, but I never expected
them to look like this in reality,” Francois said. “These
are all hard edge with a lot of detail.”
I said. “The larger ones took about one hundred and
thirty hours to fill in the color after I drew them.”
“What do you
mean?” asked Francois.
“Well I draw
them out like paint by number and then I start mixing colors,
mark the areas to receive that color, apply the color and
then mix the next color. As you can see they are all oil paintings
so I am not rushed to apply the paint. The paint can set out
for a week if necessary before it begins to dry.”
“So you want
a hot little art chick to come in and fill in the color?”
Maybe two,” I said. “Kay did that job on a lot
of these. It took me a while to convince her to do it. But
you see I can work at my desk and watch my apprentice color
the work. I can stay ahead of her mixing the next color without
disengaging from my business. In time, she will be able to
mix the colors herself.”
“When I paint
by myself, I usually paint an hour and then look at the work
for an hour. That is how I proceed. It is sort of the same
when I write. I write five to eight pages until I finish a
section. Then I take a break and think out the direction of
the next section. I can do about twenty-five to thirty pages
a day with ease,” I said.
“So yes, I
would like to have two or more paintings going at the same
time. My apprentice or apprentices would always be working
on my art. And they are going to have to be special girls
because they will be listening to my conversations at work.
And they will see the two of you prance around naked now and
then. I am not changing our lifestyle just so I can get this
art moving. I just have to find the right kind of young women
to do this work. I may get some woman with children and she
can come paint while they are at school. When she leaves,
one of the art students can come in. I need colorist technicians
who can mix and apply paint and who enjoy the work. Kay liked
to paint but she did not mix colors. It was like the ceramics
she used to work on. I loved to watch her create those ceramic
objects. It was so peaceful to me. It relaxed me. I miss that.
Hopefully these apprentices will be able to recreate that
same atmosphere. I think they will.”
Francois just laughed.
“John here again, I think I know you and you walk me
into this giant area of your life that I had not even considered
being that significant. John how long did it take you to develop
this style of painting and execution?”
three years but I am still expanding on it. The paintings
are on the net in chronological order bottom right to top
you make me so hot,” Francois said as she came over
and pushed me onto my back and got on top of me.
She kept her clothes
on but kissed me deeply and played like a young girl for a
few minutes before getting up and taking another look at each
Francois, you have never shown me your art,” I said.
“No, I have
not,” John. “We will do that in Paris when we
you have something on the net?” I asked.
“Yes but I
want to take you to my gallery. I don’t want you to
see them on the net first.”
I said. “Whatever makes you happy.”
“John I really
like these,” said Cathy. “They are different.
A lot of styles combined; and heavy into symbols and abstractions.
They all tell a story don’t they?”
“Yes. I just
need to expand the narratives that are already on the net,”
“I want the
art to relate global truths and archetypal images. I want
them uplifting so I use primary and secondary colors and I
want them as interesting close up as they are far away.”
have accomplished all that,” said Francois. “Just
amazing John WorldPeace, just amazing. They will sell.”
“My idea is
to keep the originals and just sell full size or cropped prints,”
I said. “Eventually I want them all in a sort of museum
and if I get real famous, I will lease them out and keep moving
them around the world.”
John, I see you have thought all this out in detail from creation
to marketing,” said Francois.
I have had twenty-two years on this project plus the twenty
years before that to look for a style and concept I was comfortable
with. I started painting at thirteen. So forty-eight years.”
you were doing that John, you were acquiring three university
degrees, serving in the Army, married with children and starting
businesses,” said Cathy. “This art alone is more
than some people accomplish in a lifetime totally devoted
to the art alone.”
are the Renaissance man of the Third Millennium,” Francois
said and laughed. “You are definitely one of a kind.
What else is there?”
lesser art objects. Some beaded wands. Then there are about
3000 poems and about 300 haiku poems I began to write in jail.
I guess that will about cover it. I have a WorldPeace pin,
coin and banner and rosary I designed. It should all be here,”
I said. “I’ll separate it all out for you.”
cease to amaze me John,” Francois said. “I am
sounding like a broken record.”
about thirty thousand pictures I have taken of family and
events over the last forty-five years. That covers almost
all of my life. The ones before I was eighteen of course I
did not take. Most since 2002 are digital. So I have a pretty
complete photographic history of my life. I could employee
someone for a year just to scan and organize all of that and
eventually I will.”
“What I have
is nothing compared to what I have in my mind to create. I
want to set up a WorldPeace pottery factory. I want to finance
the creation of lots of WorldPeace related art. But I am not
going to design it all. I am going to run contests and the
best art will go into production; all kinds of mediums and
outside murals as well. This will be a lot of fun; creating
WorldPeace beacons all over the world. Art is the universal
language like music. But art is non verbal. No translation
is necessary; unlike the words to music. And there is the
“What I am
thinking is that we will have a contest and then the best
pieces will go into production. The artist will not get a
lot of money but he or she will get recognition. Only the
very best will win. It will mean a lot of money for him or
her. So we get the art, reproduce it and use the money to
promote WorldPeace. In time of course, there will be some
significant monetary prizes as well.”
“You see I
feel there are a lot of ways to make WorldPeace pay its own
way. And that pay is always going to translate into jobs that
create income for more jobs. There will be some charity projects
but I just believe that charities are very inefficient and
finite. Job creation is ongoing and self-perpetuating. It
all comes down to the initial seed money. Maybe some of your
friends will have an interest in contributing.”
“A lot of
this is in my head, and like the art, has to be written up
and put on the internet; one of the many WorldPeace projects.
Right now restarting the web design business is at the top
of my priority list. The books are a done deal. So that is
launched. That was project one when I got out of prison.”
“I love you,
John,” said Francois.
“And I love
my WorldPeace angels as well,” I said.
subject,” I said.
“I have to
deal with Rose and Linda. I am not just going to dump them.
They healed me after I exited prison. I want to invite them
over and I just want to lay out the fact that things have
changed dramatically as they will be able to see when they
come to this condo. But more importantly, I am going to be
traveling a lot and most of my time will be spent with WorldPeace
and the women that are involved with me will probably be involved
in the WorldPeace Advocacy, my business or art. The reality
is that I will not have typical relationships where I date
someone who is totally outside my endeavors. It has to do
with my limited time.”
“Also, I have
come to realize my real love is the WorldPeace Advocacy and
no relationship is going to replace that priority. I have
totally failed at two long-term marriages because of my non-relationship
interests. After logging thirty-eight years of marriage, I
have to move on. My relationship with Rose and Linda was more
sexual anyway. But there were emotional connections or I would
not have been intimate with them. They are the only two women
I was involved with before I went to Paris and met the two
“So I want
to have them over, tonight if possible, and get that out of
the way. And I want the two of you here. I am not going to
have jealously or anyone wondering about what I am doing with
anyone else. It is all going to be a communal relationship
but I will be the only male in the hen house.”
“I feel that
I have defined a life style that I think will work for me
and now I have to find the women who will be in harmony with
that life style.”
the Snake, every woman who came into the office was a threat
to her. And we lost business because of her attitude. I am
not going to put up with that. You two certainly realize I
am not going to try to bed every attractive woman I meet.
I don’t have time for it. But I am single and sometimes
there will be a special connection I am sure. Nothing I sought
out. Just something that happens. But again I just don’t
see any involvement with women who are not involved in my
don’t like going out to eat. I prefer movies at home.
Also, you have to consider my whole day is going to be interacting
with people about WorldPeace and business. So I have no interest
in going out on a date and not have some free time. If we
go out to eat, it can be pleasant. If I go out with someone
not in the business it becomes work. Not only that, if I go
out with two women, they can talk to each other if I don’t
want to talk or in our case after a hard day we may go out
and speak very little. It’s complicated but will work
out I think.”
“No John except
that I do think that Rose and Linda are one of the last loose
ends of your old life and it needs to be resolved tonight,”
“For me, John
your new life really started when you moved in here last night,”
“I agree with
that,” I said.
I called Rose and
Linda and told them I had moved and I wanted them to come
over and talk. I told them that Francois and Cathy would be
present and we could have something to eat brought in. They
agreed to come over about 1900.
Cathy and Francois
and I went into the storage room and began to sort things
At 1845, Rose and
Linda arrived together. Cathy met them at the door when they
arrived and brought them into the kitchen. I stood up and
hugged and kissed them when they entered the kitchen. Cathy
gave each a glass of wine after they sat down at the table.
Francois said, “Welcome
to the WorldPeace harem,” with a smile.
I said. “You are too mischievous.”
she is right,” said Rose. “I am just trying to
figure out who is the number one concubine.”
“All of you,”
I said. “I am a democratic peace lover.”
“I will say
this is a bit different than the old apartment John,”
“I am here
because I have a very generous benefactor who is a true believer
in WorldPeace,” I said.
“But I did
receive a very nice advance from Harper for my books and maybe
one day I will be able to afford this place,” I said.
“Is the benefactor
here at this table, John,” asked Linda as she looked
“No my benefactor
is a he,” I said.
is all a bit shocking,” said Linda, “but I really
don’t know why. I never thought Rose and I would be
your only lovers because we could not wear you down.”
“So he is
not just superman with Cathy and I,” said Francois.
“No, I think
not,” said Linda. “I doubt four women could wear
“We will see,”
“Yes I think
we will,” said Rose.
“Hold on ladies,
I want to live to see the sunrise tomorrow. I see now that
I am at a table of lionesses.”
“I am a tigress,”
I met Cathy in Paris the first day and through Cathy, I met
Francois. Cathy and Francois belong to a group of over a hundred
individuals who loosely gather once a month and who have been
looking for a peace advocate who they could support.”
“After I came
back to America, Cathy, asked if she could be my personal
assistant, working for free for now. And I agreed. She has
become indispensable to me in a very short time.”
“So you never
go without stroking,” said Rose.
“I take what
I can get,” said Cathy.
“I look forward
to getting to know you better,” said Rose.
“And I you,”
“I want to
watch that,” said Francois.
the sidelines I hope,” said Rose.
and sipped her wine looking at Rose and then Linda.
along ladies. I had a revelation about a week ago. That has
really given me some peace in regards to personal female relationships.”
“I am all
ears,” said Rose.
“In a nutshell,
I failed at two separate nineteen year marriages. I was married
to Satan’s daughter with the Snake and to an angel with
Kay. At the nineteen year mark, both left. A week ago I realized
they left because I was and continue to be married to the
WorldPeace Advocacy and my businesses and all a woman could
ever be to me is a mistress to my WorldPeace Advocacy.”
be no more marriages for me,” I stated emphatically.
“Also, I realized
that I would interact more personally with women who worked
with me and really would have little time for a normal relationship
outside the business. If you want to be with me often, you
have to be with me when I am ready for down time. Whether
it is 1400 or midnight or 0500.”
I prefer bisexual women or those who do not object to another
woman in bed along with women who have a total lack of inhibition.
Everyone here fits that definition.”
“I asked you
Rose and Linda to come here tonight to be honest with you
and tell you things have changed in my life.”
“For the better
as I look around the table,” said Rose.
“I think we
all speak the same language,” said Francois.
“And we are all thinking the same thing right now,”
‘Would you like to see the apartment Rose, starting
with the bedroom?”
“I was about
to ask you where it was,” said Rose as she got up and
waited for Cathy to lead the way.
Cathy smiled at
me and said, “This way Rosy.”
I think I would like to join the tour,” said Linda.
“What about you?”
“As soon as
I get more comfortable,” she said as she stood up and
removed her clothes.
pussy cat,” she said to Linda.
I sat at the table
sipping my wine thinking I would let them burn off some energy
before I followed them. This was going to be a night to remember
and the meeting just started thirty minutes ago.
My mind could not
really absorb all that was happening when I heard Francois
call my name followed by three others doing the same. They
sounded like kittens crying for their mother. But they were
tigresses and lionesses fully grown and hungry for something
other than milk.
I stood up and took
a deep breath, looked at the now lighted city to the west
and walked thoughtfully to the bedroom.
a first time for everything,” I thought.
Harold sent me a
two page email through Cathy regarding the contracts. I scanned
it and satisfied myself that he was doing his job. He still
did not give me a fee for himself. I believed that he was
getting a feel for the scope of the representation before
he committed. I understood this was potentially a gigantic
unique super complex representation.
came by on Tuesday to talk to me about going to Washington.
He said that he and Cathy would fly there together. That Francois
and Jeremy would be there and that is why Francois was leaving
that night. I was to come up on Thursday evening and one of
these women Jeremy sent to me was an FBI agent who would fly
with me on a commercial airline. Marshall and Cathy would
fly out early, predawn on Thursday morning.
Marshall said they
had their game plan together and it would be an all day meeting
Friday with the directors coming in and out.
Other than that,
it would be business as usual. I had worked very hard since
Sunday after the big night on Saturday. Linda left early Sunday
morning but Rose stayed until Monday. The girls came and went.
I prepared to work on the files. I wanted the three women
to stay busy on Monday. They were going to work eight to five
but one would take a second shift if I wanted. They were going
to bring in one or two more low level clerks for more of the
more mundane tasks of filing, sorting and so on.
The FBI woman was
a very attractive well built redhead. She was very formal
and sharp. He name was Alicia Shipley; a southern girl from
The maid came on
Monday. There was not enough for the butler to do. The work
continued on the condo, but only on minor things. They would
do more major work while I was away
On Monday morning,
after everyone arrived, I told everyone that there was to
be no illegal drugs in the apartment. I told Cathy I had decided
I wanted a border collie and I wanted it trained to do some
tricks and such but I also wanted it trained to smell dope
and bark if it discovered any. I believe dope should be legalized,
especially marijuana, but that does not mean I want to be
around it. Absolutely no coke or heroin was to be in the apartment.
I know Francois and Cathy smoke marijuana and I may have made
allowances. But my intimacies with women were my vice and
I did not want to push out into other sins. Being with four
women who are each completely uninhibited and bisexual was
at the outer limits of my desires. I am too old and disciplined
to become a sex addict. When involved, I am deeply intense
but at some point it is time to get out of bed and go to work.
I have never used
illegal drugs, which amazed Cathy and Francois, but they did
not doubt it. They thought at least some of my creativity
came from the use of drugs. I told them what I tell everyone.
I don’t need drugs to reach a high that most people
cannot get to without drugs. Also, I like my mind clear and
although I drink a shot of whisky or liquor once in a while
and a glass of wine sometimes with meals, I avoid drunkenness.
I only remember a few stupid occasions when I was in my late
teens when I became totally drunk. I hated the experience
and even the drinking that lead to it.
Alicia spent the
night on Wednesday sleeping in what would be the butler’s
quarters. She drove us all to the airport Thursday afternoon
in her car. She was very attractive and sexual but both of
us had kept our relationship strictly business.
We were picked up
in a limo from the DC airport and taken to the same meeting
room where Marshall and I had been before. Francois, Jeremy,
Marshall and Cathy were there. We all greeted each other.
Apparently Alicia was a part of my growing entourage because
she stayed in the conference room. About thirty minutes later,
the directors entered with their people. I hated going to
school and I had hoped this was not going to turn into that
kind of meeting.
Tom Wentworth, the
CIA director opened the meeting.
and I call you Dr. WorldPeace because I want everyone to get
used to it. John is too frivolous except in private in non
business gatherings. So please everyone use Dr. WorldPeace.”
WorldPeace, Harper has given you a million dollars as an advance
on your books. It is obvious that they believe in your WorldPeace
Advocacy. Money talks Dr. WorldPeace and we are hearing Harper
Collins very clear.”
“We have done
our homework. You are not a terrorist but a liberal. However
even a likeable intellectual strikes fear into the hearts
of conservatives. I personally think you push things but you
don’t expect rapid movement. I believe you have patience
and ‘peace now’ does not really mean ‘peace
now or else’ to you. So we are more comfortable with
you. We just can’t find any anarchist terrorist related
leanings in you. You believe in the USA, you are just pissed
off at it right now; more specifically and rightfully at the
individuals who screwed you.”
“What I want
you to do for us Dr. WorldPeace is to tell us your dream slash
vision; best case scenario on all fronts. Let us compare that
to our objectives. But I want to start with your giving us
a global view,” he said.
“I can do
that,” I said.
fundamental practical belief is that creating jobs is the
best way to increase the peace and I believe I can do that
by building a multibillion dollar web design/internet related
business. I will use Third World labor, but not exclusively,
to build product to sell in the First and Second Worlds.”
“Now with regards to the WorldPeace Advocacy, I want
to be the first world citizen literally. It may begin with
dual citizenship in every country in the world. Or I may work
on the UN to create such a status. I want to win the Nobel
Peace Prize because it, like becoming the first world citizen,
will give me credibility. I want for now to be the President’s
personal advisor on peace with hopes of eventually the creation
of a cabinet level Department of Peace that I want to head
to get it started. These three things will give me credibility
and added to the hopeful success of my books will give me
a worldwide audience. I want to unite the world’s peace
groups behind me.”
“Now I will
advocate peace vigorously on these fronts all of which can
stay out of your way or the way of the US government.”
“I will attack
the law, criminal, civil and family. I will attack the way
judges are elected and appointed to try to achieve a less
biased judiciary. I will push for prison reforms for inmates
and push for mandatory sentencing guidelines and deferred
adjudication for all first offenders. I will push to legalize
marijuana now; and later cocaine and other drugs. And let
me say I have never used illegal drugs. You can’t stop
the use of illegal drugs anymore than you can stop alcohol
consumption. The two are the same to me. We create death and
destruction, pain and suffering by keeping it illegal. Much
later, I will advocate legalizing prostitution.”
“I will attack
the corruption of religious bureaucracies mainly by requiring
openness. I will advocate a spiritual umbrella over religious
beliefs. I will encourage people to be spiritual first and
religious second. I have no intention of starting a new religion.”
is corrupt in that special interests dominate over global
interest. Big business contributes money to create a constituency
and then elects politicians and expects them to vote in line
with the conditions attached to the money contributed: this
issue is about election reform.”
“So far nothing
gets in your way,” I said. “All these areas can
be attacked in traditional American ways.”
away from the theory of politics and to the specific political
issues. I want to go to Cuba. But more so I want to go to
Palestine. That is the mother core of Muslim Jew Christian
hatred and war. I want to immediately pour money into Palestine
by way of creating jobs. That is all. It is not political;
creating jobs building web pages. It will pump money into
the Palestinian economy and it will irritate the Jews who
want to wipe them off the face of the earth; which is sad.
So I don’t want to be hindered in the creation of those
jobs. If I create enough jobs, I will have more influence
over the leadership of the Palestinians to work on peace.
Hopefully, I won’t be killed by some radical terrorist
Jew like the one that killed Yitzak Rabin.”
All of my objectives
except Cuba and Palestine are user friendly to the CIA, FBI
and NSA. I expect that it will take me a decade of work to
begin to make headway on those goals. So we have time to learn
to get along. We being, me and you, you being the CIA, FBI
and NSA, etc.
“The big prize
comes to the WorldPeace Advocacy by creating peace in the
Middle East. But my efforts there will always be dangerous
to my personal safety. So I will have to go slow.”
speaking about day to day issues, I don’t want to be
the official representative in these operations you have going.
If someone wants to give information to the United States,
I would like to have a front man or woman but in certain cases
I will speak directly to whoever wants to work for you. I
want diplomatic immunity of course immediately as the President’s
advisor not as a state department employee. I want to always
appear to be what I am, an advocate for peace and WorldPeace.”
“That is it
in a nutshell,” I said.
“Oh, I have
contempt for George W. Bush because there were other ways
to deal with Iraq and Afghanistan which now depends on the
poppy to survive economically. But it may be if we hold fast,
that Iraq may become another Japan or Germany and George will
go down as one of the greatest Presidents. We are in the mix
in Iraq. Let’s finish the job. The price to date has
been too great to quit now.”
“Let me say
this, that generally speaking that I will push to end the
problem of going to war and not paying to heal our returning
soldiers, to deny abortion but refuse to increase welfare
and to cram pack prisons and refuse to guarantee basic human
rights to prisoners.”
Dr. WorldPeace. You have given me clarity for the first time
with regards to your objectives. I clearly understand what
you are trying to accomplish. I think we are going to be able
to work together just fine. I don’t find you belligerent
about any of our policies. Even in Cuba and Palestine our
long-term goals are integration and peace. But as you know
there are obstacles.”
with my reputation is people are not smart enough to look
at my overall philosophy and my enemies skew my message and
make it look incoherent and terroristic or at the least contra
USA. It is not.”
“It is a liberal
agenda in many ways but it is not anti American, terroristic
or traitorous and anyone who says it is, is just wrong,”
said the director.”
I said. “Thank you very much.”
“Let us take
a short break so we can all gather our thoughts and adjust
our comments and questions based on what we just heard from
Dr. WorldPeace. Let us take a thirty minute break.”
get back to work. Dr. WorldPeace we are going to be able to
cut our meeting time in half because we see that we are in
harmony on many issues we thought we were going to have to
sell you on.”
what we want you to do at this point is really pretty simple.
Jeremy has a huge number of direct and indirect contacts.
I’m sure you don’t know that Jeremy has over twenty-five
hundred clients and friends that invest their money with him
or are partners with him on one deal or another. He is very
well connected financially all over Europe. Through his contacts
there are another twenty thousand indirect contacts.”
we want to bring as many of these people to us as we can;
mostly as informants. All these people are in the top one
percent of European society.”
“Some of these
people we have been trying to recruit for decades. We feel
that you can help them decide to come on over and work with
us. We believe that your advocacy takes the higher ground.
In some ways it seems above politics even though it really
isn’t or it seems to try to take politics to a higher
level. Because of that image, especially since Iraq where
the USA has appeared to be a war monger, we need to appear
obliquely as promoting peace. It if appears we are backing
you, we will accomplish that goal”
“So what we
want is to have Jeremy introduce you to his friends in small
and large groups and one at a time. We are hoping that these
people will give an indication to you that they want to help
increase the peace. Then you can give us their names and we
will take it from there.”
“I was getting
ready to say, I don’t want to be one on one selling
them on becoming an agent,” I said. I am fine with being
a part of contacting them but that is all. In fact, all I
want to do is to take their cards and tell them I will see
what I can do or tell them someone will be contracting them.”
“We can live
with that,” the director said. “A lot of people
Dr. WorldPeace are going to want you to help them get something
from the United States; a visa or loan, information, any number
of things. What we hope is that we can give them what they
want in exchange for something we want. Again you will for
the most part be the point of contact passing on names.”
we are going to give you some information that we want passed
on. Many times this will be a phrase or statement that you
interlineate into your lectures or speeches or comments at
a party or at a bookstore. There will be people coming to
see you listening for those words.”
“That is what
we want from you in the beginning.”
“I am OK with
all of that,” I said. I just can’t appear to be
working for you as an employee. I take a name and you send
someone to contact them; no problem. I don’t want to
be seen as a CIA lackey. I have my WorldPeace Advocacy and
I want people to believe that it is free standing and what
I do outside my web design business.”
You have to remain Dr. WorldPeace of the WorldPeace Advocacy;
an author and businessman; someone who will criticize his
week I understand you are going to Paris and Jeremy is going
to introduce you to members of his peace group through a week
of parties and gatherings and such.”
“That is my
understanding,” I said.
are introduced to that group of people and you get to know
them over the next three to four months to a year. Jeremy
is also going to start connecting you with a second tier of
contacts. By then, you will have the reputation as the peace
man which is what we want.”
with anything so far, Dr. WorldPeace?” he asked.
Francois is going to be with you a lot at these gatherings.
She also has contacts and is known all over Europe. So she
will be someone who can vouch for you and bolster the WorldPeace
Advocacy and verify it. We expect the newspapers to prove
that you are a legitimate writer, WorldPeace advocate and
that will cut down the suspicion that you work for the United
States government as an agent.”
will be times when we will want you to work with other beautiful
women like Francois with people that Francois does not know.
In fact, there are several of these women simply waiting for
you to get your feet on the ground so they can go to work.
In all cases, we are trying to recruit agents on all levels
who will give us information.”
makes sense,” I said.
be your body guard as well as your personal assistant. In
fact, over the next four days she and your son Marshall will
get some intense training in how to protect you. We don’t
want you to get shot again. That guy who shot you was way
off the radar. He was just a nut case son of one of your old
girlfriends. We would never have anticipated his actions.
That was a very unusual situation. But it still made us look
inept and bad.”
“We also have
a couple of women who will replace Cathy especially when you
are going into a country where Cathy does not speak the language.
So at all times in these gatherings, you are going to have
two women with you; one socially and one as a bodyguard. In
a lot of cases, we will have a second bodyguard disguised
as a maid or other servant or even just a guest. Most of the
time you will not even know who the second guard is.”
“Now on the
domestic front, you will always have an FBI agent with you.
Alicia will be that agent for now. We are not sure if this
is going to be a twelve or twenty-four hours a day presence
for her right now. These women will be bodyguards as well
but sometimes may appear as your date. In the United States,
we expect you will be going most of the time to book promotions.
So you won’t need Francois. But at parties like the
ones that Jeremy is setting up, you will need Francois or
someone trained by us to be your date. There are so many variables
in each situation it is hard to say if you will have one,
two or three agents protecting you. Right now Alicia is assigned
to you for ninety days but we will review that in thirty days.
How often we rotate these agents will depend on your relationship
with them. They will all be attractive and single due to the
nature of the job and the excessive hours to be worked.”
presence of your servants and the agents and your companions,
you will seldom be alone. Of course we have people monitoring
the condo mostly by cameras and microphones. Every room in
the condo is wired. You understand what I mean. If you want
to extend your life you have to give up some privacy. We do
believe your life will be in ongoing and constant danger.
We will monitor closely what you say with the intention of
keeping you alive.”
“I will see
to it that your bedroom and personal living space cameras
are monitored by women only.”
“Yes do that,”
“For the rest
of the day, Alicia will be with you as you are instructed
by each of the people in this room. They will be your constant
support system. They are all top level people and few outside
this room will know about the operation which by the way is
code named ‘Pax Americana’.”
“Do you have
any questions,” Dr. WorldPeace.
Oren Hanson and
Eric Warden, the directors of the FBI and NSA said they were
glad to have me on board and would talk to me personally later
on in the day.
“That is all
we have now Dr. WorldPeace. Alicia has your itinerary and
schedule for the rest of the day. Your day here will end at
seven this evening. Then Alicia has the tickets for the two
of you to fly commercial back to Houston tonight.”
I release Dr. WorldPeace to go with you.”
Alicia handed me
the itinerary and schedule and said we were about thirty minutes
ahead of schedule and we could get a Starbucks in the building
if I wanted. I did and we did.
The day was filled
with Federal agents explaining what they did and how they
would interface with me. They all said it would be years before
I really settled in but not to worry. When necessary, I would
be given cram sessions on important assignments.”
I was also given
a half dozen gadgets; 007 spy stuff. And I was shown the basics
of operating them. Again Alicia was assigned to make sure
I became proficient in their use.
Francois and Cathy all disappeared before I could speak to
them. I did not see them before Alicia and I left for Houston.
We had a nice trip
back to Houston. We visited and got personal to the point
that I felt I pretty much knew her by the time we arrived
at the condo about midnight.
We sat up and had
some light snacks and rice milk and then I went on to my bedroom
and Alicia went to her room. I got into a hot shower and within
a few minutes Alicia tapped on the glass door. She was naked
and asked if she could come in. I said yes to the most awesome
body. She was about fifteen pounds overweight but it looked
great on her and felt fantastic. She had a million beautiful
So much had happened
in the last six weeks, I was seldom surprised at anything
anymore. I had never been with a red headed woman in my life;
all that red hair and all those freckles and those brilliant
green eyes, what a vision. What a life I was living.
We got out of the
shower and exercised in bed for a couple of hours then fell
asleep spooning. We did not wake up until 1000.
When we woke, I
asked my little FBI agent, Alicia, why she had slept with
is not a big religious kind of issue with me. I have been
with a number of men and women. I am thirty. I am single.
I like sex. I did not want to sleep alone and you turn me
on which I attribute to my respect for you. I don’t
see or meet a lot of really powerful men and I saw how you
handled that meeting yesterday. It turned me on. I wanted
you to make love to me and I want you again right now. Maybe
it’s your psychic energy. Maybe it’s the way I
see Francois and Cathy relate to you. Maybe it’s how
casual your are about sex. I don’t know. I decided I
wanted to sleep with you the first day I was here. There is
no agenda. I wanted you and I wanted to give you my body.
I wanted to experience you taking pleasure in me. And I was
right about how good it would make me feel. And I really must
have some more of you right now.”
I allowed Alicia
to take charge and we made love for two hours. This is another
one of those things I do not fully understand and I want to;
the psychic sexual energy. Is it just the kind of women I
am around? Is this just how women are these days? I love the
experience and Alicia is a fantastic lover and beautiful woman.
I want this sexual thing to continue. But I want to understand
what is happening regarding all these women as well.
Regardless, I had
several more days alone with this red headed beauty and I
was going to take all the pleasure I could get by being with
We got to know each
other over the next few days. On Monday evening, Cathy returned.
She said Francois went to Paris and would see us on Friday.
Cathy said she went through an intensive training course with
Marshall. About ten percent of it was physical and the rest
was going through CIA and FBI manuals. She brought home several
government manuals that she said had to be kept locked in
the safe in the condo that I did not even know existed.
During the week,
I got an extraordinary amount of work done so that Alicia
along with Beth and Jessie, the assistants hired by Jeremy,
could work for a week after I went back to Paris. Alicia and
Cathy and I got along fine. Alicia essentially stepped into
Francois’ shoes and it was Cathy, Alicia and I as opposed
to Cathy, Francois and I in bed. I am amazed at how all these
women get along with each other; at least in my presence.
On Friday, Alicia drove Cathy and I to the airport and we
took a commercial flight to Paris that had a stopover in New
York. I had purchased some new clothes but I expected to buy
more in Paris and leave them there. I wanted to wear clothes
that did not make me look American when I was in Paris.
Harold called and
said that he would meet me in Paris the following week and
we could go over the book contracts. Harper was sending my
manuscripts with editor notes and corrections on it per my
It is too hard to
find the edits if they are not marked. Also, I felt I would
learn a lot by looking at the edits instead of just reading
a cleansed script. Also, I did not want additions and deletions
without my knowing it. Unless I saw the marked corrections,
I would probably miss some. Typically I would edit something
three times; about half the time for content and the rest
of the time for grammar, punctuation and so on.
We arrived in Paris
at 0200 and Francois picked us up in her limo and took us
to her condo on the Seine. I was glad to see her.
When we entered
the condo, I saw Francois had made some changes; new furniture
and paintings. It was more open. It was set up to entertain
now. We relaxed with some coffee and wine as per usual.
how have you been without me?” Francois asked.
love,” I replied.
with Alicia to keep you warm at night you would have forgotten
“I think not
my love. But you know what they say, ‘If you can’t
love the one you want, you have to love the one you’re
with’,” I said.
“I see how
it is with you,” she said as she came over and gave
me a very passionate kiss and whispered ‘I love you’
in my ear and I said the same to her.
“So tell me
how these parties are going to proceed,” I asked.
one is tonight,” Francois said. “Jeremy knows
you will only be here for ten days for sure so he wanted to
have something every night. He also has morning and afternoon
meetings set up for each day. These will be smaller groups
of five or six. Some have to do with business. The Feds gave
us a prioritized list of who they want you to meet. They know
you are a work-a-holic so they felt it would be OK to give
you this exhausting agenda. A lot of daytime meetings are
around Paris in various restaurants and cafes. That will allow
you see some of the sites. Jeremy felt some of the meetings
will cancel for one reason or another and on those days we
can go site seeing.”
I said. “Well I am up for this. I am looking forward
I see your art?” I asked Francois.
“On one of the free days we will go to my gallery,”
she said. “But today I think you need to take it easy,
deal with the time lag and rest. You have a sort of marathon
to run over the next ten days no matter what happens.”
you say my dear,” I replied.
“For now I
can see that you are really tired and need to go to bed,”
you is not the place for me to get rested,” I said.
“That is true,”
she said as she took my hand and pulled me to the bedroom
with Cathy close behind.
Francois,” I said. “What did you ever do before
I came along?”
“I was looking
for you,” she said. “But I did not know it until
I found you.”
When we got to the
bed, they both pushed me down and began to play. I loved them
both. They made me feel whole.
About 1300 we went
to a local outdoor café and had coffee and wine. It
was a perfect day.
“So tell me
Francois, what do your friends think about me now?”
feel good. All the rumors about you being a loose cannon,
they realize now were nonsense. They understand how people
could come to that conclusion because you are too deep and
complex for the majority of people to understand. But they
have done their homework and they have all kinds of reports
on you. They probably now know you better than you know yourself.
Some of them have even begun to admire you and you might have
a true believer or two in the making.”
be interesting,” I replied.
“Are you two
carrying guns?” I asked.
said Cathy, “along with some other very nasty defense
toys. You are well protected John.”
“I was just
curious,” I said. “I had not really thought about
it until now.”
said Francois, “with all the reports and research and
so on, these people still do not feel they know you.”
“I am sure
that’s true. But it is all really very simple. I am
a very spiritual person and I live half the time in that world.
So I can see how everything is interfacing on earth. And I
know how to tap into the creativity of the spiritual dimension
if you will. These friends of ours are unable to go where
I can go. They don’t fully believe it. They are very
guarded. They can’t see what I see. They don’t
know how psychic I really am.”
“It is something
that I developed; a way of looking at things; the only way
to look at things actually.”
a God Francois. Most people just give God lip service because
they really don’t believe. I will tell you this. A country
like China will never defeat one like the United States that
is highly spiritual and religious. American can tap into that
God source and that God source is all knowing and will always
make a difference, especially in war.”
“So you are
saying you can’t win battles without God?” she
“No, I am
saying you can’t win wars or successfully defend yourself
without a belief in God, regardless of how you envision God.”
can get out of control. And it kept Europe in the Dark Ages
for a thousand years and for that reason God had to be removed
in China. Now that they have caught up to a large degree,
we will see if they return God to society. I doubt it though.
Look at the way they are trying to destroy Tibet. They are
trying to root out any loyalty to anyone but the Communist
“I am used
to it now, the fact that no one understands me. I am used
to the loneliness of no one to really talk to. I am just the
fool on the hill; the old gorilla in the zoo, an anomaly and
enigma. I make people’s heads hurt and disturb their
consciousness with thoughts of disease and a reminder of their
evil nature. I keep thinking about the Biblical story of Elijah.
When King Ahab saw Elijah coming, he basically said, ‘Here
comes the troubler of mankind’. That is what I am; a
troubler of the world human society; but not a trouble maker
my love I think you just indulge me and I wonder why you hang
around,” I said.
think I have ever been really in love John. What I feel with
and for you is so different than what I have ever felt for
another man; for lack of a better word I called it love. That’s
why I am here because of the emotion of being in your love,”
of what others feel about me, I find that I don’t trust
any of them,” I said. “It is a learned experience.
I had faith in everyone until about five years ago and then
I realized that people generally were more evil than good.
It is the nature of this reality. Then I quit trusting them
and I have been in this mild state of depression every since.
If I were not addicted to female intimacy I am sure I would
be a hermit living in a library reading condensed sterilized
narratives from and about the once great dead. It seems odd
that a great man’s life would be summed up in four hundred
pages; about five pages per year.”
“How dull an
existence even the best and the brightest of our species actually
live. And as far as the rest of humanity, maybe after the
pages on lineage and progeny and where they lived and who
they married, there may not be but one half a page of dull
high lights. It’s really sad to me. People live such
shallow insignificant lives by choice.”
“So tell me
the agenda for tonight. Is it a party, a dinner, what?”
a little social time, then dinner and after dinner he wants
you to speak on whatever you want and then a couple hours
of mingling. I would say a thirty minute talk,” she
“Are we supposed
to make contact with anyone in particular? Do I have to a
mission tonight?” I asked.
are some of the top drawer people that Jeremy knows. Actually
friends that he wants to introduce you to.”
Cathy saw someone
she knew and went over to speak with her.
she said with those lightning eyes.
“Hold a minute,”
I said as I took out my pocket notebook and made an entry.
my spiritual friends just revealed your little secret,”
is that?” she asked.
“The big one,”
one,” her eyes flashed.
I watched Cathy
to make sure she would be engaged in her conversation for
a few minutes.
“The one about
your financing the condo in Houston and the people in the
office. That it was your idea and your money and you just
got Jeremy to front it for you.”
of shock was something she could not hide.”
“So are you
mad?” she asked after a few moments.
“No. But I
don’t like being deceived under any circumstances. In
this case I don’t like thinking more of Jeremy’s
friends than I should have.”
“So how does
that affect you or us?” she asked with a bit of apprehension
in her voice.
“I think no
one in my life has loved me as much as you. And no one has
ever had as much faith in me as you. And I am more deeply
touched than you can ever know. And it increases the incredible
love I already have for you.”
The tears came to
her eyes and I held her hand and pulled her to me and kissed
the tears from each cheek and that made the tears flow more.
“I love you
Francois Dubois. I truly do love you,” I said.
continue to amaze me. You just overwhelm me over and over
and over again. My fairy tale is coming true and you are my
“I am old
enough to be a king you know?” I said.
“Yes but you
are young at heart my Prince.”
Cathy was still
engaged. Francois cleared the tears and put on her sunglasses
for a moment and then took them off.
“So what do
you really want from me Francois?” I asked.
John,” she said holding my hand.
“Do I need
to fear you Francois? Will you leave me?”
ever, NEVER,” she said about to cry.
“So tell me
what you really want?”
She paused and looked
up with her little mischievous smile and said, “I want
your baby John.”
be really complicated and would really change a lot of dynamics
in both our lives,” I said thinking.
“No it wouldn’t.”
she said. “Nothing would change. I don’t want
anything to change. The women are OK; your WorldPeace Advocacy,
all of it. I just want to feel your baby inside me and raise
him or her near you.”
have you had these thoughts?” I asked.
first time I met you and we shook hands and I hugged you and
looked into your eyes.”
in love a lot,” I said.
this,” she said.
“It is all
I can do to keep from dissolving into you John.”
I reached into my pocket and tore out the notepaper and gave
it to her. On it I had written. “You want my baby.”
She read it and
looked at me. “The CIA would like to have your sources,
have mine but they should listen to their own,” I said.
the paper Francois,” I said.
She did and saw
that I had written ‘YES’
She let out a loud
gasp that I was surprised Cathy did not hear. She began to
cry uncontrollably. She put on her sunglasses with nervous
hands and the tears began to stream down her face. I could
see her looking at me through the lenses as she held fast
to my hand in hers.
We kept looking
at each other with a lifetime of thought flowing silently
back and forth. I had to put on my sunglasses which were darker
than hers and then I leaned over and kissed her and said,
“And they lived happily ever after.”
The whole world was reborn for both of us at that moment of
intense immortal infinite silence pregnant with an indescribable
bliss. A moment one never wants to end.
Cathy had taken
a seat to talk to her friend and I was thankful.
can this be?”
is a God and God loves us,” I said.
guides told you about the condo. They told you what I wanted.
I never thought it was really possible that you could love
me enough to let me have your baby. And even if you did, I
thought it would be years before I could work up to asking
you. But you, God, moved the timetable up to now. Was it the
condo, John?” she asked.
“Not the condo
in the sense that you are apparently very rich.”
she said, “Billions, John.”
“Not the fact
that you are rich but the fact that in your way you loved
me enough to make that condo, people, office available to
me. And even still you would not have done it if you did not
have faith in me that is an intuitive faith because we have
not known each other that long. But a true belief in what
I am trying to do. And the fact that you realize I have nothing
in the way of assets. All I have is a dream and that dream
was enough for you. I don’t care how much money you
have. A multimillion dollar gift which for me is an undeniable
vote of confidence in me is what is important. That was an
I love you that says everything to me.”
“I know you
love me John,” she said. “My feelings for you
are just too powerful. The most intense feeling I have ever
had. Just your touch almost brings me to an orgasm.”
“I know, I
felt all that in the hospital room and you do the same for
me and more,” I said.
we are intimate, I don’t ever want you to disengage
and I know you feel the same way.”
“I will tell
you Francois, I have some fears about things changing between
us and what is going on.”
change John except I will have your baby. Nothing else will
the other women are going to get babies in their mind too.”
do that,” I said. “I don’t think I can do
that. Like I said it gets real complicated now. But also,
I don’t want you to have one child. I want two; a boy
and a girl. We will let nature make the first choice and the
doctors insure the second. And the children will be raised
like royalty but without the arrogance.”
“John my head
is really spinning. I was overwhelmed with the thought of
one child but now you are talking about a family. You have
to love me as much as you loved Kay to have a family with
me,” she said.
“I do and
more I think,” I said.
“Oh John my
heart is about to burst. We have to go back to the condo.”
“Let me go
tell Cathy,” I said.
I went over to Cathy
and told her we were going back to the condo.
said Cathy. “Anne will bring me home in a few hours.
By the way, Anne this is Dr. John WorldPeace.”
“Nice to meet
you,” I said. “Any friend of Cathy’s is
definitely a friend of mine.”
Anne said. “It is good to meet you. Cathy has been telling
me about you.”
“I am sure
we will meet again,” I smiled.
I kissed Cathy lightly
on the lips and said “I will see you later.”
Francois had paid
the bill and was standing waiting on me. I took her hand and
said, “Cathy will be a few hours with her friend which
“Yes it is,” Francois said as we walked to the
car in mutual bliss.”
THE END OF THE BEGINNING